fear instinct (feat. Madam Data, Leo Suarez, & Mimar Sinan)
from Brood VIII by Savan DePaul
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Written by Savan DePaul
Produced by Mimar Sinan, PLACE (madam data & Leo Suarez), & Savan DePaul
Mixed by Savan DePaul
Mastered by Savan DePaul
Produced by Mimar Sinan, PLACE (madam data & Leo Suarez), & Savan DePaul
Mixed by Savan DePaul
Mastered by Savan DePaul
lyrics
[Verse 1]
Afraid that my Aspergers will end up eating my mind
Afraid I can’t afford all the treatment for mine
Afraid my own mind is gonna leave me behind
Afraid I’ll blow my brains out and piece up my mind
Afraid that I’ll fail on the mission I set
Afraid that it’s hell that imma visit in death
Afraid that I’m prey to my vanity now
Afraid I’m a disgrace to my family now
Afraid my stimming will be misconstrued, kid, for real
And that could lead to gang niggas shooting with steel
Or lead to the blue badges shooting for real
Afraid that the centrists gonna pollute up our will
Afraid that if I get cash and get used to consumption
Then the market’s gonna crash and I’ll be left with nothing
Afraid my motivations will be left in the dust
Afraid that there’ll be nothing left here for us
Afraid of the ways of the powers that be
Afraid cuz I’m ashamed of the coward in me
[Chorus]
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face kiddums, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement cuz I’m looking to solve
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face kiddums, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement cuz I’m looking to solve
[Verse 2]
Irrational, perhaps
Capped in part by facts
Body react with massive heart attack
Trapped like artifact
Capped in part by facts
Lasting karma, at last DePaul could snap
Terrifying world I face
Acid rain era Savan would be shook
I’ve laid damn near every feeling in these hooks
Don’t give me the freeze look
Everything from motherfucking oppression to street crooks
Got my blood so frigid it glisten in sheets, look
Got me looking over the shoulder sprinting through these hoods
But we can’t let it stop the visions that we cook
My niggas’ll re up, we digging in these books
I’m mental, you see cuz?
I meant every word I’ve written in these books
You get it, capiche, good
The minutes that we took for delivering these goods
I gave myself a much-needed free push
[Chorus]
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face nigga, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement and looking to solve
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face nigga, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement and looking to solve
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face nigga, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement and looking to solve
Afraid that my Aspergers will end up eating my mind
Afraid I can’t afford all the treatment for mine
Afraid my own mind is gonna leave me behind
Afraid I’ll blow my brains out and piece up my mind
Afraid that I’ll fail on the mission I set
Afraid that it’s hell that imma visit in death
Afraid that I’m prey to my vanity now
Afraid I’m a disgrace to my family now
Afraid my stimming will be misconstrued, kid, for real
And that could lead to gang niggas shooting with steel
Or lead to the blue badges shooting for real
Afraid that the centrists gonna pollute up our will
Afraid that if I get cash and get used to consumption
Then the market’s gonna crash and I’ll be left with nothing
Afraid my motivations will be left in the dust
Afraid that there’ll be nothing left here for us
Afraid of the ways of the powers that be
Afraid cuz I’m ashamed of the coward in me
[Chorus]
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face kiddums, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement cuz I’m looking to solve
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face kiddums, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement cuz I’m looking to solve
[Verse 2]
Irrational, perhaps
Capped in part by facts
Body react with massive heart attack
Trapped like artifact
Capped in part by facts
Lasting karma, at last DePaul could snap
Terrifying world I face
Acid rain era Savan would be shook
I’ve laid damn near every feeling in these hooks
Don’t give me the freeze look
Everything from motherfucking oppression to street crooks
Got my blood so frigid it glisten in sheets, look
Got me looking over the shoulder sprinting through these hoods
But we can’t let it stop the visions that we cook
My niggas’ll re up, we digging in these books
I’m mental, you see cuz?
I meant every word I’ve written in these books
You get it, capiche, good
The minutes that we took for delivering these goods
I gave myself a much-needed free push
[Chorus]
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face nigga, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement and looking to solve
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face nigga, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement and looking to solve
Afraid, kid, I’m shook of it all
You can tell on my face nigga, look at DePaul
We’re placing the blame on the root of the cause
But I’m making a statement and looking to solve
credits
from Brood VIII,
released June 28, 2019
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Savan DePaul // Ishtar Sr. Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
she/they/dey pronouns
tiergarten records // grimalkin records // sagan theory // magicicada // free
spirits // party in the crossfire
for the creation of musical projects that take listeners on wild experimental journeys. every possible genre, ones this side of the galaxy and beyond, collide in one consciously charged package. revolutionary, sensuous, contemplative, vibrant.
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